Today’s writing challenge is to share a positive example of where you’ve felt loved. As one might expect, responses have ranged from something akin to; no one’s ever loved me, to You can’t beat the love of a pet.
I can recognize and empathize with both of those positions. While I’ve never felt completely unloved, there were plenty of times when those who should have loved me didn’t. At least, if they did love me, they made certain I never felt it.
I noted in a previous post that I have a beautiful wife who loves me and beautiful daughters who are not ashamed to admit I was their father. That is a great feeling. Still, it is just a feeling.
So, what is my point here? Feelings are all we have. Whether one is an old retired cop who spent over three decades looking at everyone suspiciously or a young man who loves his puppy, feelings are all we have. Even if the feeling was wrong, as many of us learned the hard way, feeling loved is important.
I buried that feeling pretty deep as a child and later as a young man because of the way my family and others treated me. For years, I thought love was nonexistent, at least among humans. So, my relationships were often shallow and suspect.
Thankfully, some things I learned about loving others as a child never left me. I might have been unable to receive, but I remembered how to give and forgive. What I remembered kept me from hiding myself in my little fortress of suspicion and fear. Otherwise, I would never have been able to feel love again.
As I found out, with a lot of help, somewhere inside us, that innocent little child that the world attempted to destroy still exists. If that child is still with us, there is a chance to feel loved again. If I could, anyone can.
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I dont know ehat I expected from an old cop’s blog. But that was kind of sad and beautiful all at once.
I am glad that you are out of your fortress of suspicion. It does not sound pleasant in there.
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A loving wife makes all the difference in the world.
Thanks for reading and taking time to comment. Nice to meet you, even if its online. We have some common interests it seems. I started racing karts back in the early 60s, then did some drag racing as a young adult, and quite a bit of motocross though I was too old to be competitive by that time. I’ve also driven a few laps at Texas Motor Speedway. Of course, being a street cop in North Texas in the 70s, I had more than a few high speed pursuits.
Just subscribed to your YouTube channel. Thanks again for reaching out.
Hi Eric…my name is Chris, and our driver at Demaras Racing is my son Daniel.
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What are the odds that a guy in Totonto is going to stumble across a go-kart riding, drag-racing, motocross jumping retired cop from Texas!
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The internet is a weird and wonderful place.
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Im glad that your daughters admit you are their dad. That line made me smile; I have 14 year old girl. When I sometimes come home for lunch, and she’s here with her friends, she gives me a look that makes me think she tells her friends Im just the handyman.
The internet has made this a small world in many ways. Also, just to keep with the strange coincidence part of this situation, I’ve been in your part of he world several times. I was an officer and then president of a small international association of campus law enforcement and security organizations. Visited Toronto or Ottowa a couple of times a year during the 1990s. Nice chatting with you.